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Well, I'm not one to really make new journals... But since no one wants to look at my Metrocon Review forever, decided to go and make another already... Well, I have plenty of things to say for this, so I may as well just start.

Summer sucks... yes, *hears gasps of horror* I know I know, shocking. Metrocon was the only thing I had been looking for in the summer. And now that's done and over with, I can't wait to go again. Speaking of cons, due to lack of money, and transportation, I will NOT be making it to any other con unless I hitch a ride with someone in my area (Dunedin), which isn't likely. The only 2010 cons I will be able to go to are Toshocon (for being close) and Metrocon. I'll still be able to go to my FYE's minievents though, no worries my cosplay peeps You guys know who you are! Cuz you see me there all the time!

For sad news... I, for the first time in my life, went to a funeral... Last Sunday it was held, and I went back to my ex-church to pay my respects to Sandy, the person who gave me my first and beloved flute. She has been the third person I know to die. The first was my Great Aunt Virginia who died in Feburary... I made the mistake of not visiting her. The second was my friend Quintin, who lived in New York. This death affected me greatly because I got the news at 3 in the morning the next day, when a friend who knew him called, her name being Hunter. He died on June 10th, at 10:45PM... It made me cry, because I had no idea that he had had throat cancer, and I had only known him for a bit more than a year. When Sandy died, it was two deaths in two weeks... because of his, and other deaths in the world, I started hating the month of June, thinking of it as 'the month of death'. Quintin had also been my Vincent Valentine on xanga, to which I affectionately called him 'father', me being his 'son'. (The theory for me is that Vincent is Sephiroth's father, so he also is the father of the remnants) He had been such a great roleplayer, and a good drawer too...

Getting past the death part... I feel as if a few of my friends are slipping away. It scares me, because I hold all my friends, online and offline, preciously close to me, and each time I lose one, let it be because we don't talk, or they suddenly distance themselves from me, it scares me. I hate to lose friends... And I want those friends back by my side. Selfish of me, I know....

I also have been suffering from fainting spells. Ever since Metrocon, I thought I'd be fine, seeing as I HAD been wearing pleather, and didn't eat or drink too well. But as it seems, I've been starting to faint at home too. It can't be the heat, or not eating/drinking good. I'm afraid I may be anemic, but I have no idea until the damn doctors FINALLY give me a blood test and say it to my face instead of just brushing it off and saying 'Oh it's just in your mind. You'll be fine'. It's not fine when I'm holding a breakable object and a knife when I suddenly collapse against my refridgerator in the dark and not being able to move while my mind struggles to reconnect with my brain.

And about my writing... I'm suffering from writer's block slightly, AND major roleplayer's block. I have so few roleplaying buddies now that my poor RP mind is frantic about withering away. My Kadaj muse is beating me up for not roleplaying, so yeah... Xanga used to be where I used to RP until Quintin died and the roleplayers sort of disappeared (like my Yazoo). If anyone has any place where I could roleplay, please, tell me.

Who knows, since there's nothing to do during summer, I may update this journal, so if you see it pop up again, check if there's a new update...

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